tragic car accident, to the unexpected birth of my children, to the loss of my mom. Writing about these experiences is freeing and therapeutic, my stories are mine some I will share some I will keep to myself.
Through all of these things, there is one constant lesson I have learned; and that is that Life goes on. And in that life is so extremely short to care; well let me say it is too short to care about the small stuff, and especially the stuff you can not change. It has taken me some time to get to a place in life where I have stopped caring about what other people thing of who, and what I am. The truth is this, I am Erin, I have crazy quirks, I am emotional, I build up walls when I think some one is too close, I am a complete mess at times. But I am also smart, engaging, fun, witty and caring, too caring some times which can also be a fault.
As I have mentioned, I have learned a lot in the 31 (omg I am 31) years I have been on this planet. Life is too short, this has occurred to me not only when I have lost people close to me from death but also from losing them when they have decided to walk away from me. That is a pain that hurts forever. When someone you have trusted and loved just walks away, it tears you up. But once again, I pick
myself back up and keep going forward.
I admit I have made some pretty big mistakes in my life, and maybe this contributes to the actions of people who have walked away from me. But the truth is I do not want my life be a constant regret. I once read a quote by Sofia Loren, and it has stuck with me for years, "I regret nothing, regrets only make wrinkles." Isn't that the truth though? I mean we all do the things that we do in our lives because at one time it made sense, made us feel good, or it was some thing that we really wanted to do. So, why regret anything?
The truth is we are who we are, and who ever is looking out over us has made us who we are. Not every one that you meet in life is going to love or even like you. I have come to realize that, even though it sucks. But, I am not here on this Earth to prove myself to anyone, but me. I am enough for me, and if you are in my life personally who I am should be enough for you as well.
I admit I have made some pretty big mistakes in my life, and maybe this contributes to the actions of people who have walked away from me. But the truth is I do not want my life be a constant regret. I once read a quote by Sofia Loren, and it has stuck with me for years, "I regret nothing, regrets only make wrinkles." Isn't that the truth though? I mean we all do the things that we do in our lives because at one time it made sense, made us feel good, or it was some thing that we really wanted to do. So, why regret anything?
The truth is we are who we are, and who ever is looking out over us has made us who we are. Not every one that you meet in life is going to love or even like you. I have come to realize that, even though it sucks. But, I am not here on this Earth to prove myself to anyone, but me. I am enough for me, and if you are in my life personally who I am should be enough for you as well.
And that goes for you reading this. You should be enough for you and the people around you. Surround yourself with supporters instead of haters. I think that once people stop judging and just embrace people for who they are, this world we be an amazingly beautiful place. Look beyond people's outside, and even some of their quirks on the inside and see people for the true value of who they are.
After all, life's too short to even care at all.
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