Sad Songs Say So Much

I have days that I just NEED to cry. One of those days is today. I'm not sure what is going on in my head and heart but I feel like I am not whole. It has a lot to do with this time of year. If you follow me I wrote October ,and it explains why I start feeling this way this time of year.

Anyway, when the emotions build up and I feel like I need to release them I have a list of songs that make me cry, and since I am an emotional masochist I decided to write the list down. I am sorry if I seem a bit out of it recently, I am going to try and write happier things coming up but my mind is a mess and I need to release.

• Someone Like You-Adele. Adele has a way to invoke every damn emotion in the world, with just these words; "Don't forget me I beg. 'I'll remember' you said, sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead" We all know that feeling when you love someone but they have moved on and you just can't seem to let them out of your life.

• So Far Away-Avenged Sevenfold. I am a HUGE A7X fan, for years. There drummer passed away a few year back and they wrote this song about him. As a fan that touched me, but this song came out after my mom passed away so it pulls on my emotions there. "Now and then I try to find a place where you can stay, you can stay awake forever." "I love you, you were ready. The pain is strong the urges rise. But I'll see you when He lets me. Your pain is gone, your hands untied." Losing my mom is a whole other blog but this only one of the songs that makes me think of her.

•  God Only Knows-The Beach Boys. I think this song is on my list not only for the lyrics but the haunting melodies that encompass every Beach Boys song, but it is one simple line that does it for me "God only knows what I'd be without you."

•  In My Life-The Beatles There are a plethora of Beatles songs that being so many emotions, that maybe one day I will write a whole blog about my infinite love for The Beatles. But as far as true tear inducing "In My Life" is the winner on that. I, like most little girls, often thought about what my wedding day would be like, and what songs would be played. This song tops the list of songs that I would dance with my dad to. My pops is a huge Beatles fan and I think this would be the perfect ode to him. Sadly, at 31 I am still not married but I am hoping that day comes and I can dance with my dad while singing; "Though I know I'll never lose affection for people and things that went before. I know I'll often stop and think about them. In my life I love you more. In my life I love you more."

•  Tears in Heaven-Eric Clapton. Simply you have no soul if this doesn't get to you just a little. "Beyond the door, there's peace I'm sure. And I know there'll be no more tears in Heaven."

•  My Way- Frank Sinatra. It sums up the totality of life. This one reminds me of grandmom, she lived life she loved fiercely and was a strong old broad when she passed away at 80 years old. She introduced me to big band and singer and song writers of the 40's and 50's. She taught me so much, she was truly a second mom to me. I wish she was still here to tell her stories. But this song is so her. "I've loved I've laughed and cried. I've had my fill, my share of losing. And as tears subside, I find it all so amusing. To think I did all that, and may I say not in a shy way, oh no oh no not me, I did it my way." 

• Fix You- Coldplay.  There is just so much emotion in this song, between the haunting organ to Chris Martins emotions coming through as he sings "Tears stream down your face when you lose something that you can't replace." We have all been there trying to fix ourselves or someone when the pain is just so evident.

•  Black-Pearl Jam. Pearl Jam is another band that has some very lyrically heavy songs, but Black is haunting, when you listen to it it's the melodies in the guitars and bass, along with Eddie Vedder's piercing voice makes you feel something deep inside, especially with "I know someday you'll have a beautiful life, I know you'll be the sun in somebody elses sky why, why, why can't it be mine?!?" You can just feel the pain coming through his voice.

And finally, it's a happy song seriously. But it makes me cry because I have so much hope for myself. I haven't exactly been the best Erin I could be. But I am trying for the two little people I have been blessed with, but also for myself. For the love that I want, and the love I deserve.

•   At Last- Etta James. For the one my heart will speak to "You smiled yeah you smiled and then the spell was cast. For you are mine at last."

These are just a few songs on my long list of tear inducing songs, but these are the 100% guarantee that no matter where I am I will need a box of tissues to soak up the stream that is about to break free from my sad blue eyes.